This summer I have been offered a job at a private school. My daughter, who is now one, would have the opportunity to play and learn with the children at the school as part of the new infant program, while I put some time in the logs in-house. It sounds wonderful – a wonderful opportunity, but I just can’t seem to let her go, even for a minute, while I go next door and log onto the computer. The position was supposed to be flexible over the summer and then this fall, they would need me at least one full day each week, maybe two, but I don’t know if I am going to be able to do it. We tried, kindof, one day… but I just couldn’t trust, and I couldn’t leave her. I couldn’t bear the separation, the anxiety; I couldn’t bear to let her cry, I couldn’t bear to sneak away or be without her for even a minute; I couldn’t trust the teachers to not feed her wheat.

My heart holds and clutches. I just can’t let her go – I mean…I lost him…so how could I possibly let her out of my sight!

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